Hi there, i would like to dedicate these words to Markus, a man who helped me save my soul. He is responsible for my understanding of myself and the ability to express myself in this beneficial way. He spent seven months of his life teaching me what i needed to know in order to attain a reasonable amount of contentment in my life. The process of attaining it and the wonderfull rewards of practicing it. Before i met this man I actually thought i knew quite a lot about most things, but gradually i became aware that I didn’t really know anything at all of any importance to my well being, with hindsight this discovery in itself was a great lesson in the process of ACCEPTANCE. My teacher who i am calling Markus for anonymity reasons introduced me to myself with great care and compassion. With his guidence and colossal patience he helped me to understand and go through the process of accepting my true self, the good the bad and the ugly.
This was for me a very difficult process to go through considering my nature at the time and the fact that I didn’t know what ACCEPTANCE actually meant as a emotional process. I just thought it was a word branded around by people struggling with some emotional experiences or something they did not understand. I remember my first lesson vividly and this is fifteen years ago, Markus said to me, tell me something that bothers you or makes you feel uncomfortable inside. Something that truly upsets you. This was the first time i had ever been asked a question like this so i was shocked into silence and Markus just sat there in his chair with his kind face that almost assured me that i could tell him anything and he would not judge me. So i think i was kind of hypnotized by a combination of the man and the question, after maybe 10 minutes of silence i said, my life. Markus replied what is it in your life that upsets you. I said I’m not sure, i just have a sadness inside me, sometimes i feel ok but there always seems to be this kind of dull aching in the background like a shadow that i cant get away from. After a while i grew accustomed to distracting myself from the dull aching and its effects on my behavior towards myself and others. Markus smiled and said, what would you say if i said you have Soul Sicknes. You are emotionally poorly. With Acceptance, forgiveness and compassion we can heal the feelings inside, we can take away the loneliness the neediness, the tears and fears. The negative emotions we hold onto are issues we have not dealt with therefor we have not been able to accept them. Which leads to our internal discomfort. The magic of ACCEPTANCE will allow us to let go of these negative emotions. I replied how will i know i have ACCEPTANCE, no smile this time, Markus sat there with a straight face for what seemed like all eternity, the silence was uncomfortable, you will know when you have acceptance because you will feel it my friend, you will definitely feel it…
ONLY WHEN WE SURRENDER TO OURSELVES
MAY WE BECOME VICTORIOUS WITHIN…..
Take good care of yourselves,
Bless ya souls